im losing friends everytime i turn around. im losing my baby girl, today was my last day with her and i dont know what im going to do any more. i keep losing everything. i feel like everytime someone leaves me they take more of me with them and it seems like there is nothing left now. its been 7 months since matt stole my heart and ran. i thought brett stole it back for me but i was worng i was jsut a speed bump in his life. i have austin now but i dont feel like anything is there to give him i try and i cant. i never drank or gotten high before and now it seems like i revolve around those things anymore. i crave a relief and i cant find it. im not the sweet girl i used to be. im some lost piece of nothing. i feel so alone ina crowd and never find a place i can relax from anything. i feel like i need to build a wall around me to keep everything out and forget all the paina dn frustration. it seems lik nothin joyful every comes my way. idk wat to do anymore